We are not alone....

A great song


We are not alone- Robbie Seay Band   (check it out)






As a little girl I remember playing with my dolls and barbies and pretending that they were my babies. I would dress them, feed them, rock them to sleep and just play with them for hours. No matter what I was in control of the moments and things that were going to take part. Oh the joys of life. Don't we all wish we could go back to a special moment in time for just a little bit. Also as a little girl growing up in to a woman my thoughts would drift and I would fantasize about what my life would turn out to be like and I had a plan and that's how it was all going to play out! I would go to High School, I would have a ton of friends, I would get my license and drive where ever my heart desired, go to college, become a singer, get married and not only have the first child, but have TWIN girls. Crazy thought we have. lol. Well unlike my fantasies or being in control of what baby would be my daughter for the day and what outfit she would wear, real life isn't always that simple. God has a plan and we are waiting on his time and we will have bumps in the road, the road may split, sometimes you will walk it alone or side by side someone, sometimes the road may even seem a little unclear but with trust in God and in yourself you can do anything. So their are several things I am waiting on but in the mean time I will pray, help my life along, not give up and enjoy it all. Yes several of the things I fantasised about did happen but by all means they were not on my desired time. Some days in my life can be a constant struggle on the inside but I know I have a great support system and a loving husband who treats me like his Queen. I know I just have to get up trust that I will be taken care of and one day I will one day have all that my heart desires not material things but memories, moments and people in my life that will make it all worth while. Here are some people that make my life a blessing.............

First off my Momma

With out you I would not be here.

You are my rock and you are always their to pick

up the pieces. I love you and could not

imagine my life with out you.

My step dad who has been a father to me for the

past 9 years. You are what I have waited for

and needed in my life. Thank you for being

such a good dad and always comforting me!

My husband, my high school sweet heart, my best friend

I love you so much! Thank you for always holding my

hand and helping me through each and everyday.

Thank you for just listening and helping me

learn to love the simple things in life.

Baby sister, oh boy! You are just like me.

Funny and full of life. You are so special to me. I love you

like your my own.

Brother, the tough one, the protector.

Even though you are my little brother

thank you for taking care of me like a big brother

would. We are so close and I really cherish that!

I love you

My beautiful niece, where would our hearts be with out you.

You are so precious and growing everyday. The are the most

beautiful baby girl I have ever seen and you have stolen my heart.

I am truly blessed to be your AUNT SIS.

I love you baby girl.

Mom and Dad

Thank you for welcoming me into your home and your family.

Thank you for being my support group and always being there to lean on.

My life would be alot less exciting with out you two. You have

raised a wonderful son! He is such a hard worker and I know he makes

 you proud.

Jamie and Eric, oh where to begin!!

I love you two to death. When I'm with y'all I just feel so

at ease and relaxed. I know I can talk about anything and know

you will listen. Y'All are my baby brother and sister! I think we have a very

special friendship. Not only are we family but we are friends.

Jamie thank you for being you. You always know how to make me feel better

and you can always relate to the way i feel. I know i can count

on you. I'm glad to have you as a sister!! Just remember

always stay true to yourself and We are always

here for you too!!

Matt and Jenn

Though we don't get to spend as much time

together as we would like. We always have fun with you guys!

Jenn thank you for being a good friend and sister.

From Jr. high friends, to room mates to becoming

sister in laws. It has been a fun ride! I never would

have imagined we would be related but wouldn't have

it any other way!

Deanna, my sweet, beautiful cousin.

My little sister! I just want you to know

I love you so much and you can always count on me

no matter what!

Survey

1. Where is your cell phone: On my desk right in front of me.


2. Your hair: half way today


3. Your mother: is the most patient person I know


4. Your father: is funny


5. Your favorite food: Japanese or Italian


6. Your dream from last night: actually it was about Emily


7. Your favorite drink: Sweet tea.


8. Your dream/goal: To be the best wife and mother that I can be.


9. What room are you in: mine


10. What is your hobby: jewelry making, photography, painting, sewing, anything crafty i can do it


11. What is your fear: im am so closterphobic


12. Where do you want to be in 6 years: I am happily married to my best friend now


13. Where were you last night: on our way home from wichita we had dinner with Nathan's parents, it was nice


14. Something you are not: 100% confident
15. Muffins: Blueberry
16. Wish List items.: i really haven't been wanting anything lately
17. Where did you grow up: Fort Worth, Texas


18. Last thing you did: Work


19. What are you wearing: Jeans and a t-shirt


20. Your TV: flat screen


21. Your pets: Romeo the cat and Willie the beagle
22. Your friends: are pretty much the best.


23. Your life: is growing a changing one day at a time
24. Your mood: okay


25. Missing someone: yes..........


26. Vehicle: Chev Cobalt


27. Something your not wearing: shoes


28. Your favorite store: Target, hobby lobby


29. Your favorite color: robins egg blue and brown


30. When's the last time you laughed: Last night


31. When's the last time you cried: today...somethings can just be so frustraiting
32. Your best friend: i have a few they are all in different places doing i dont know what...lol
33. One place you go over and over: Other than work, my moms
34. One person who emails me regularly: My DH


35. Favorite place to eat?: Sake

Along with Spring and Summer comes....

Flowers

Easter

Gardening

Snow Cones

Dresses

Baseball

Sunglasses

Roadtrips

Sunsets

4th of July

BBQ

Six Flags

Flip Flops

Summer Scents

Dear Ovulation, Why are you such a Witch?

What no one told you about Trying to Conceive...thanks to TWW

That unprotected sex doesn't necessarily lead to pregnancy.

That your sex life would start to resemble a science experiment

That the longer you TTC, the more PG women spring up around you.

That deep down inside, I can be a very jealous person

That I would know more about the female reproductive system and menstrual cycle than most of the doctors I go to.

That living your life in 2 week increments would be the norm

that you never knew how much you wanted to see those 2 pink lines......until only one shows up every month

That you have no control over some of the goals you set...

That wishing really hard for something doesn't make it happen, and staring at your chart doesn't make it change!

That miscarriage is so common.

That I would wish we had started TTC earlier.

That my friends' pregnancies would start to make me sad instead of happy.

That I wasted ALOT of money on Birth control pills!!

That you wouldn't know how important a baby was to you until it took so long and you realized what you were willing to go through to make it happen.

That family would act like getting pregnant was a competition between all the young couples in the family, and the first one to get pg "wins".

That my DH is the most wonderful and caring man!

That it is insensitive to ask people when they are having a baby!

That women who do get pregnant are so very blessed!

That I would be happy to see abundant CF and tell my DH about it.

That other people's "good news" of pregnancy makes me sad and when they tell me they have good news, I hope that they just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Geico.

That medicine and procedures are not a sure fire way to get pregnant but it is a sure fire way to lose money fast.

That had I bought stock in Clearblue Easy I'd have my mansion on St. Pete's Beach in FL by now.

That having flo show up makes you cry, no matter who's bathroom you are in.

That it does not get easier; each cycle is harder than the last.

Feeling like you wish your life away in 2 week increments.

That I wouldn't want to hold or see someone's baby because it just hurts way too much.

That a group of "strangers" who I will probably never meet, have now become my "best friends" when it comes to ttc.

That I would splash urine on my face while taking apart an hpt in the hopes there really was a 2nd pink line hiding in it.

That talking about sex with fellow TTCers would be so easy.

That infertility is more common than you think.

That one day all of this will make us stronger.

That there is sometimes darkness (infertility) before the light (a baby).

That no one I know (in my non FF life) would have any understanding as to how I feel.

That my temper and patience are much shorter than I ever thought.

That infertility is not as rare as I was led to believe.

That I would find it extremely difficult to be happy for other people's pregnancies and I would burst into tears upon hearing their news.

That my faith in God would be tested heavily.

That I would make so many new, wonderful friends who totally get how I feel because we all suffer from the same affliction of infertility.

That it could hurt so much to lose your innocence.

That I am very bitter towards unmarried accidental pgcys, and slightly bitter towards married accidental pgcys.

That there is nothing to aid conception in the water at work, despite what some may say.

That someone I thought to be my best friend would hurt me by saying that she was sick of hearing about my efforts at ttc.

That I'd discover who my true friends are, both IRL and online.

That I could spend so much time and money on figuring out what my body is doing (or not doing).

That some people just say the wrong things.

That a simple blood test costs $648!

That sex would ever become a chore!

That actually having a miscarriage would allow me to understand the loss that others have felt.

That miscarriage would make me want a baby even more than before!

That I would resent someone who has been trying less time than me telling me "I know how you feel..."

That I would learn to speak in code

Like I checked Cm which was EWCM but when I will POAS who knows, dh won't let me for fear of BFN

That when AF showed up you would feel broken and disfunctional.

That your friendships with your real life girlfriends would suffer because they got pregnant after being off the pill for 3 weeks.

That this would be, by far, one of the hardest things you will ever have to go through.

That you HAVE to have sex even though you don't feel like it, but because your FM says high or peak.

That people would pity you and feel sorry for you.

That I would stop fantasizing about having a baby because it stopped making me happy.

That I would hear well-meaning questions like: "Have you thought of taking your temperature?" (And this is after 12 months TTC...)

That my brother, who started TTC at the same time we did and whose wife got PG three months later, would go on and on telling me how tough and tiring life with a baby is, and then finish with: "You have no idea what it's like!"

That the two little words of "just relax" uttered by everyone I know would infuriate me beyond belief.

That someone would suggest adoption to me in order to get pregnant (because it happened to a friend of theirs) before I had even had any testing done.

That my friends who started TTC #1 around the same time we did would already be pregnant with #2 before we get pregnant with #1.

That I wouldn't be able to attend my friend's babies 1st birthday parties because of the question, "So, when are ya'll going to have children."

That the people around me would become more insensitive as time goes on. "It is so hard having a new baby, you just wouldn't understand." or "Be happy you're not tied down."

That I would watch a Baby Story every day... only to cry every day.

That it puts this much strain on a marriage.

That I spent years trying not to get pregnant, and praying for my period. Now I can't seem to lose the witch!

It's good to know I am not alone.

That I would have to listen to people complain about their children as if they were burdens while a child is the one thing in the world I want the most. Also, they sound as if they are trying to talk me out of having kids, like it is the absolute worst thing that could ever happen to me.

That being overweight would cause people to ask when I'm due, which in turn could cause me to cry.

That your body has its own mind.

That you would be keeping it a secret from everyone.

That you would cry your eyeballs out b/c AF showed.

That you would be jealous when everyone around you gets pg including your 16yo cousin.

That you would tell everyone you're not ready for a child when they ask what you’re waiting for.

Life as you know it will be interrupted for two weeks.

That the broken heart you feel each month that is equal to the pain you feel when you lose a loved one.

That all of a sudden nursing other people's babies becomes a depressing NOT joyful feeling

That you feel useless as a female

That you will soon be lying through your teeth telling people that you don't want children

That you feel that your body has betrayed you by not delivering a regular cycle, the right about of the required "hormones" or doing what it should now how to do.

That you feel stupid and naive for thinking a pregnancy would occur "when it was supposed to".

That answering questions (and usually lying) about pregnancy or family plans would hurt so badly.

By: TWW